The spirit signing his message “F” was saying; “I was being told that only the reception of God’s divine love into my soul would enable me to become a possessor of the mansions that Jesus was preparing for those who became in at-Onement with the Father. They maintained that what they told me was the truth, and sometime Jesus would tell me the same thing; for while I could not go the his home, yet he frequently came to the earth plane, and endeavored to help and comfort spirits who had not the soul development that would enable them to become children of the higher planes.
“Well, you can imagine my astonishment and disappointment, and how the nakedness of my beliefs appeared to me. And as I thought of the lifetime that I had given to the cultivation and establishment of these beliefs and expectations, I became doubtful of everything that was told me. My God became no God; and Jesus as my savior became no longer my savior, but a man who had deceived me during all the long years of my life.
“I became resentful and hardened, and refused to believe in anything. For I remembered that while on earth I had been honest with myself, and honest with God, and when the Bible had been certified to me as God’s true revelation, with the certain and only plan of human’s salvation, I had devoutly believed in its plan, and had endeavored to live the life that entitled me to salvation. Thus, I remembered and thought of these things, and the realization of my deception made me rebellious, and I almost hated the spirits who were there with me, and God as well.
“For awhile I was permitted to indulge in these thoughts without interruption, and then my friends told me that these thoughts were harmful, and would prevent me from learning the true way to salvation and happiness, and that the longer I indulged in my feelings of resentment and thoughts of having been deceived, the greater would be the stagnation in my progress, and the darker would become my surroundings.
“They then explained to me that all things in the spirit world are controlled by unchangable spiritual laws, and that these laws required that I should go to the place that my soul’s condition fitted me for, and that they would have to leave me for now.” To be continued…