Message published in, The Gospel of God’s Love, page 465.
‘”I am here B— I want to say a word. The Indian (White Eagle) tried to stop me, but your wife asid, “Let him write,” and I am doing so.
“Well, I am still in hell and suffering, I wish that I could die again, but I cannot, and will have to stand it. I can’t even be deaf, so that I might escape some of my torments, for I am surrounded by the most hellish beings you can imagine, and I have to listen to them. It is no use trying to fight, for I can’t hurt anybody, and they become more annoying when I try to punch one of them.
“It is awful, and I so regret that I did not listen and try to understand what the Doctor (Leslie Stone) so often told me when on earth; but now it’s too late. I often hear what he says to you now in your conversations, but for some reason I can’t quite understand. And besides, if I did, these damned ugly spirits would knock all the understanding out of me. It is hard to learn what you call heavenly things in hell, and I am so unhappy, and see not way to relief.
“The Doctor’s father talked to me, and told me some things that were like what the Doctor told me; and I felt better when he was telling me, and some hope came to me. But when I got back into my hell and saw all the horrors, and the shrieking, and ugly spirits, I forgot, and the hellish feelings came to me again, and I suffered.
“Oh, if I could only find some relief from these torments!
(a comment was made.) “Well, I will try again, for I know that Mr. Stone is kind, and wants to help me; but my trouble is that I doubt if he can. But I will go as you advise, and try to believe that he can. I am very thankful to you and the Doctor, and will try to hope. Anything to get out of this place and away from these devils.
“Your wife says I must stop, So goodnight, B—
We create our own condition by the way we live our lives from day to day. By the thoughts we hold and choices we make. Strive to develop your love nature. Amen